Nineteen.

I am so grateful. A year ago, I was walking through a valley and I wasn’t sure if I’d make it another week, let alone another year. But by God’s grace, here I am celebrating another year of life and rejoicing over what the Lord has been doing in me.
Through this past year, I have gained a deeper understanding of the Lord as
My Savior
My Redeemer
My Helper
My Healer
My Provider
My Comforter
My Maker
My Sustainer
My Anchor
My Deliverer
My Leader
My Restorer
My Defender
My Shelter
My Hope
My Peace
My Joy
My LORD
And my GOD

He is worthy to be praised for His faithfulness.
I am in awe of His goodness and His grace.

“I love the LORD, because He has heard
My voice and my supplications.
(2) Because he has inclined His ear to me,
Therefore I will call upon Him as long as I live,
(8) For You have delivered my soul from death,
My eyes from tears,
And my feet from falling.
(9) I will walk before the LORD in the land of the living.” Psalm 116:1-2, 8-9

Life is a gift and I am so grateful to be given nineteen years.

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Hi I’m back! (Again)

It’s been awfully quiet over here. If you’re still subscribed to this small corner of the internet, thank you for sticking around. 🙂

I’m doing alright. The Quilted Rose Co. has kept me very busy. I’m currently working on restocking my shop. I can’t believe that I’m doing what I have prayed for and dreamed of for several years. Etsy definitely wasn’t what I had in mind when I thought about starting this endeavor but it made sense the more I prayed about it and so far it’s working out really well!

I’m still at the trophy shop and I still love it. I’ve got two of the best jobs in the world, y’all. I can celebrate people’s achievements during the day and I can create and quilt at night.

I *do* sleep eventually. There have been a lot of nights when I have had trouble sleeping. The worst is when I’m exhausted but sleep won’t come. My mind will race and I’ll be thinking about my next project or my next task. Or I’ve stayed up too late working on something and I’ve caught a second wind. During those nights I’ll talk to the Lord or I’ll sing in my head until I drift off. Waking up the next day is a struggle though, I’m not gonna lie.

I just finished a Bible study on God’s Priceless Woman with a dear friend. We looked at the Proverbs 31 woman and the godly woman described in Titus 2. Then, each week following, we studied a different woman in the Bible and a characteristic mentioned in the above passages. I’ve really enjoyed having someone to study with and pray with on a weekly basis. It has helped keep me accountable in my personal study time and in other areas in my life. The fellowship has been sweet and encouraging to me and it’s been something that I’ve needed in this season of life.

I just came back from a whirlwind family reunion. The whole family drove up to Chicago for the weekend and we saw all of our cousins on both sides. It was wonderful to see everyone and the best part (at least for me) was to give my grandmother her new quilt.

She had asked me to make her a quilt about two years ago and sent me all of the fabric for the fans. I had worked on it off and on, in between moves, school, work, and The Quilted Rose. Now it’s finally completed and in its new home. My first custom order as The Quilted Rose Co. 😊

I am in the process of looking for a car and getting my license. It’s been a slow process, mostly because it’s not a priority for me. 😜

And for those of you who have been following the saga of our nasty next-door neighbors, we have gotten word that they have put their house up on the market! Mom says there will be no premature celebrating…but we’re all praying they move out fast and better neighbors will replace them.

That’s it for now, I think. Hopefully there will be more to share in the coming months and perhaps more sleep(?) Thank you again for sticking around!

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I had a breakthrough.

One of the things I struggle with is worth and value in the things I make. To me, each thing I make is like my baby. A piece of my heart and soul is poured into every quilt, every mug rug, every pillowcase, etc. I have been constantly asking myself, “what is this worth? Is this valuable? If I try to sell this, will anyone want it? Will they even like it? And if they do like it, will they be willing to spend their hard-earned money on this thing that I made?” (Y’all, I’m about to open my own quilt shop and I’m having some serious doubts.)

I listened to Taylor Lee give an excellent talk on her Instagram LIVE that shed some light on some of the shadows I’ve had in my brain. I named doubts and fears that apprehended me from sharing or even doing what I love. Like for instance, I have a fear in the back of my mind that the recipient will not appreciate or love what I made for him or her as much as I do. And if they don’t love it, does that mean my work isn’t worth anything? To be completely honest, my doubts about how much my work is worth and how valuable it is translate into my doubts about how much I am worth as a person. “How valuable am I? What am I worth? Am I appreciated and loved? And by whom?” (There’s the deep question.) As I think about myself and my faults, shortcomings, and sin issues, I get so down and wonder how it’s possible that anybody could ever love me. What do people see in me that makes them stick around and tolerate me, like me, and LOVE me? What about me is so interesting?

I had my “aha” moment that broke me. I was asking the Lord (and myself), “what am I worth? What do You see in me?” And the answer came as a whisper but it was as plain as day. I am worth JESUS to the God of the universe. Jesus who is perfect in every way and I am not. Jesus who never ever sinned, (not once!) and I sin every single day. Jesus who always pleased the Father and I do not.

And yet, when God looks at me, He does not see my righteousness, He sees the perfect person of His Son. (How can this be!?!?!)

I am completely, entirely, and fully loved by Him. I am worth everything He is, not because of any innate ability or quality of mine, but because He saved me from my sins by giving His life as a ransom for me. And that’s really all that matters. He rescued me. He redeemed me. (You’d think I’d know this, and I did in my head. But it’s been so long since it’s penetrated my heart and sunk in.) Y’all, this never felt real until now!

I am in awe of how God works. He doesn’t leave us in the dark.

So anything good that you see from me, whether it’s something I make or say or do, is not because of me. It’s all because of Jesus, my precious Savior. He has changed my life forever and without Him I am nothing.

Morgan Harper Nichols Though.

I love this lady and I love the words she shares. She writes devotionals and poems and she creates beautiful pieces of art, oftentimes combining color and words into an amazing masterpiece. You can find her on Instagram (@thedevoco & @morganharpernichols)

Her words have encouraged me so much in the past several months. She is also a singer. Her soulful voice has accompanied her sister, Jamie Grace, in her latest album, ’91. (Go listen to Daughter of the King)

Hope this encourages you today! ❤

Jesus Draw Me Ever Nearer

“Jesus draw me ever nearer
As I labour through the storm.
You have called me to this passage,
and I’ll follow, though I’m worn.

May this journey bring a blessing,
May I rise on wings of faith;
And at the end of my heart’s testing,
With Your likeness let me wake.

Jesus guide me through the tempest;
Keep my spirit staid and sure.
When the midnight meets the morning,
Let me love You even more.

May this journey bring a blessing,
May I rise on wings of faith;
And at the end of my heart’s testing,
With Your likeness let me wake.

Let the treasures of the trial
Form within me as I go –
And at the end of this long passage,
Let me leave them at Your throne.

May this journey bring a blessing,
May I rise on wings of faith;
And at the end of my heart’s testing,
With Your likeness let me wake.”


I learned this song years ago when my church introduced it. It’s one of the Getty’s songs and I dare say it’s one of my favorites.

My Jesus Cares.

(Part 7)

July 23, 2017

#237 Grace Greater Than Our Sin

1. Marvelous grace of our loving Lord,
Grace that exceeds our sin and our guilt,
Yonder on Calvary’s mount out-poured,
There where the blood of the Lamb was spilt.

Refrain:
Grace, grace, God’s grace,
Grace that will pardon and cleanse within;
Grace, grace, God’s grace,
Grace that is greater than all our sin.

2. Dark is the stain that we cannot hide,
What can avail to wash it away!
Look! there is flowing a crimson tide;
Whiter than snow you may be today. [Refrain]

3. Marvelous, infinite, matchless grace,
Freely bestowed on all who believe;
You that are longing to see his face,
Will you this moment his grace receive? [Refrain]

#269 There Is A Fountain (I love this song)

1. There is a fountain filled with blood
Drawn from Immanuel’s veins;
And sinners, plunged beneath that flood,
Lose all their guilty stains:
Lose all their guilty stains,
Lose all their guilty stains;
And sinners, plunged beneath that flood,
Lose all their guilty stains.

2. The dying thief rejoiced to see
That fountain in his day;
And there may I, though vile as he,
Wash all my sins away:
Wash all my sins away,
Wash all my sins away;
And there may I, though vile as he,
Wash all my sins away.

3. E’er since by faith I saw the stream
Thy flowing wounds supply,
Redeeming love has been my theme,
And shall be till I die:
And shall be till I die,
And shall be till I die;
Redeeming love has been my theme,
And shall be till I die.

4. Dear dying Lamb, Thy precious blood
Shall never lose its pow’r,
Till all the ransomed Church of God
Be saved, to sin no more:
Be saved, to sin no more,
Be saved, to sin no more;
Till all the ransomed Church of God
Be saved to sin no more.


Mr. Dale gave the sermon that Sunday morning. His main point/question was this: Who Is The LORD? He started in Exodus 5 – in the portion of Scripture where Moses and Aaron confront Pharaoh and deliver God’s message to let the Israelites go. And Pharaoh, almost sarcastically asks, “Who is the Lord that I should obey His voice to let Israel go? I do not know the Lord, nor will I let Israel go.”

Here are the notes I wrote down:

The less we know of the Lord, or the more stale our relationship with Him grows, the less we want to obey Him.

The Lord is an absolutely extravagant God so we could see the wonders of His creation and marvel at who He is.

Isaiah 6:1-5; Revelation 4

Who is the Lord? He is God! Holy, holy, holy are You Lord God Almighty! The Eternal One.

Trains can shake the ground. Ships’ engines shudder and shake their decks. Bombs cause the earth to tremble. But those are just things. Things made by man. These are nothing compared to the Lord.

He is the Creator. He is the ultimate Potter and we are the clay. The very same God who hung the stars in the sky is the same God who knit me together in my mother’s womb. He paid very close attention to how He created the universe, but even more attention to how He created me! He made sure I was exactly how He wanted me to be.

He is my Redeemer.

He knew excruciating pain and humiliation. In Matthew 27:26-31 – Jesus was scourged. Every time I read or hear the details about a Roman scourging or crucifixion, my stomach ties itself into a knot and I cannot help but shudder at the reality of the gruesome punishment my Savior endured on my behalf. A crown of thorns was planted on His head. A reed, used as a scepter, struck His head repeatedly.

Jesus, did you cry out when they scourged You? As each lash tore away Your flesh, did you scream in pain? Or did You really stay silent like Scripture says, “As a sheep led to the slaughter, He opened not His mouth.” What were You thinking in these moments of intense pain?

Psalm 22

He was rejected, betrayed by His closest friends. All of His disciples fled when He was arrested. Judas Iscariot, a man who broke bread and walked with the Lord, turned Him in. He was abandoned and left to die.

Psalm 69

He knew hopelessness and loneliness. (Psalm 22) My God, My God, why have You forsaken me?

God made Him who knew no sin to be sin for us.

Sin is a part of who I am! I am a sin-ner. Sometimes we have had to carry someone else’s guilt, but have we ever taken on someone else’s sin? Have we ever been capable of taking someone else’s sinfulness in addition to carrying our own? No one but Jesus could do that.

He knew what it was like to be treated unfairly. He knew grief, agony, and suffering. He knew everything.

John 11 – When Lazarus had died, Jesus wept! He knew He would raise Lazarus. He knew in a few minutes Lazarus would be living and breathing once again, yet He grieved and wept. So much so that people around Him said, “See! How He loved him!”

He knew the grief of having a wayward child. The grief of knowing His kids were wandering – that His sheep were lost.

Why doesn’t God fix what grieves us? Because we are being conformed to the image of His Son. We suffer betrayal and it’s devastating. Jesus’ close friend betrayed Him. His best friend denied three times that he knew Him. As He hung on His cross, the cross that was rightfully mine and rightfully yours, all Jesus had left was His absolute trust in His Father. And He clung to that.

What struck me was that even though Jesus suffered and endured so much, it was all part of God’s perfect plan. He chose the exact moment when He was going to die. And when His time came, He bowed His head and gave up His spirit willingly. No one took His life.

He knows what it’s like to suffer and to grieve. He understands! He is the God of all comfort. He has experienced every single hurt and frustration.

He know and He cares.

#603 Does Jesus Care?

1. Does Jesus care when my heart is pained
Too deeply for mirth or song,
As the burdens press, and the cares distress,
And the way grows weary and long?

Refrain:
Oh, yes, He cares, I know He cares,
His heart is touched with my grief;
When the days are weary, the long nights dreary,
I know my Savior cares.

2. Does Jesus care when my way is dark
With a nameless dread and fear?
As the daylight fades into deep night shades,
Does He care enough to be near? [Refrain]

3. Does Jesus care when I’ve tried and failed
To resist some temptation strong;
When for my deep grief there is no relief,
Though my tears flow all the night long? [Refrain]

4. Does Jesus care when I’ve said “goodbye”
To the dearest on earth to me,
And my sad heart aches till it nearly breaks—
Is it aught to Him? Does He see? [Refrain]

Who Is This King Of Glory?

(Part 6)

July 23, 2017

I am in awe of how the Holy Spirit works in the hearts of men and women. Occasionally, I’ll write down what we sang and read during the Lord’s Supper.

Here are the Scriptures and hymns that were shared during my hectic and emotional weekend. I marked what ministered to my heart. I hope this encourages you as it did me.

***Thought going into church***

“Your Mercies Are New Every Morning”

#63 – Nailed Upon Golgotha’s Tree

1. Nailed upon Golgotha’s tree- Faint and bleeding. Who is He?

Hands and feet so rudely torn, Wreathed with crown of twisted thorn.

Once He lived in heaven above, Happy in His Father’s love,

Son of God,’tis He,’tis He, On the cross at Calvary.

2. Nailed upon Golgotha’s tree- Mocked and taunted. Who is He?

Scorners tell Him to come down. Claim His kingdom and His crown.

He it was who came to bless,

Full of love and tenderness.

Son of Man,’tis He, ’tis He, On the cross at Calvary.

3. Nailed upon Golgotha’s tree- As a victim. Who is He?

Bearing sin, but not His own, Suffering agony unknown.

He, the promised sacrifice, For our sins has paid the price.

Lamb of God, ’tis He, ’tis He, On the cross at Calvary.

4.Throned in glorious majesty, Lord triumphant-Who is He?

E’en the same Who came to die, Now in heaven exalted high;

With adoring hearts we now At His blessed feet would bow.

Lord of all, ’tis He, ’tis He, Throned in glorious majesty!

#78 – Jesus! The Very Thought Of Thee

1. Jesus, the very thought of thee with sweetness fills the breast; but sweeter far thy face to see, and in thy presence rest.

2. O hope of every contrite heart, O joy of all the meek, to those who fall, how kind thou art! How good to those who seek!

3. But what to those who find? Ah, this nor tongue nor pen can show; the love of Jesus, what it is, none but his loved ones know.

4. Jesus, our only joy be thou, as thou our prize wilt be; Be thou, O Lord our glory now, and through eternity.

John 20:30-31 “And truly Jesus did many other signs in the presence of His disciples, which are not written in this book; (31) but these are written that you may believe that Jesus is the Christ, the Son of God, and that believing you may have life in His name.

John 21:24-25 “This is the disciple who testifies of these things, and wrote these things; and we know that his testimony is true. (25) And there are also many other things that Jesus did, which if they were written one by one, I suppose that even the world itself could not contain the books that would be written. Amen.”

#403 – Like a River Glorious

1. Like a river glorious Is God’s perfect peace, Over all victorious, In its bright increase; Perfect, yet it floweth Fuller ev’ry day; Perfect, yet it groweth Deeper all the way.

Refrain: Stayed upon Jehovah, Hearts are fully blest – Finding as He promised, Perfect peace and rest.

2. Hidden in the hollow Of His blessed hand, Never foe can follow, Never traitor stand; Not a surge of worry, Not a shade of care, Not a blast of hurry Touch the Spirit there. [Refrain]

3. Ev’ry joy or trial Falleth from above, Traced upon our dial By the Son of love; We may trust Him fully All for us to do – They who trust Him wholly Find Him wholly true. [Refrain]

Psalm 24:3-5, 7-10

(3) Who may ascend into the hill of the LORD? Or who may stand in His holy place?

(4) He who has clean hands and a pure heart. Who has not lifted up his soul to an idol, Nor sworn deceitfully.

(5) He shall receive blessing from the LORD, And righteousness from the God of his salvation.

(7)Lift up your heads, O you gates! And be lifted up you everlasting doors! And the King of Glory shall come in.

(8) Who is this King of Glory? The LORD strong and mighty. The LORD mighty in battle.

(9) Lift up your heads, O you gates! Lift up, you everlasting doors! And the King of glory shall come in.

(10) Who is this King of glory? The LORD of hosts, He is the King of glory.

Romans 5:6-10 ” For when we were still without strength, in due time Christ died for the ungodly. (7) For scarcely for a righteous man will one die; yet perhaps for a good man someone would even dare to die. (8) But God demonstrates His own love toward us, in that while we were still sinners, Christ died for us. (9) Much more then, having now been justified by His blood, we shall be saved from wrath through Him, (10) For if when we were enemies we were reconciled to God through the death of His Son, much more having been reconciled, we shall be saved by His life.”

Titus 3:4-7 “But when the kindness and the love of God our Savior toward man appeared, (5) not by works of righteousness which we have done, but according to His mercy He saved us, through the washing of regeneration and renewing of the Holy Spirit. (6) whom He poured out on us abundantly through Jesus Christ our Savior. (7) that having been justified by His grace we should become heirs according to the hope of eternal life.

#5 – Boundless Love

1. Behold, what love, what boundless love, The Father hath bestowed

On sinners lost, that we should be Now called “the sons of God!”

(Refrain)

Behold, what manner of love!

What manner of love The Father hath bestowed upon us,

That we, that we should be called, Should be called the sons of God!

2. No longer far from Him but now By “precious blood” made nigh,

Accepted in the “Well-beloved,” Near to God’s heart we lie. (Refrain)

3. What we in glory soon shall be, It doth not yet appear;

But when our precious Lord we see, We shall His image bear. (Refrain)

4. With such a blessèd hope in view, We would more holy be,

More like our risen, glorious Lord, Whose face we soon shall see. (Refrain)

Proverbs 30:4 “Who has ascended into heaven, or descended? Who has gathered the wind in His fists? Who has bound the waters in a garment? Who has established all the ends of the earth? What is His name, and what is His Son’s name If you know?”

John 3:13-14 “No one has ascended to heaven, but He who came down from heaven, that is, the Son of Man who is in heaven. (14) “And as Moses lifted up the serpent in the wilderness, even so must the Son of Man be lifted up.”

Colossians 1:15-22 “He is the image of the invisible God, the firstborn over all creation. (16) For by Him all things were created that are in heaven and that are in earth, visible and invisible whether thrones or dominions or principalities or powers. All things were created through Him and for Him. {HE IS THE CREATOR} (17) And He is before all things and in Him all things consist. {HE IS THE SUSTAINER} (18) And He is the head of the body, the church, who is the beginning, the firstborn from the dead, that in all things He may have the preeminence. (19) For it pleased the Father that in Him all the fullness should dwell, (20) and by Him to reconcile all things to Himself by Him, whether things on earth or things in heaven, having made peace through the blood of His cross. {HE IS THE RESTORER} (21) And you who once were alienated and enemies in your mind by wicked works yet now He has reconciled (22) in the body of His flesh through death, to present you holy and blameless, and above reproach in His sight. {WHAT A SAVIOR IS MINE!!!}