To a new year.

“So long to shame,
Walk through the sorrow,
Out of the fire,
Into tomorrow,
So flush the pills,
Face the fear,
Feel the weight disappear,
We’re coming clean
We’re born again,
Our hopeful lungs can breathe again.
Oh we can breathe again.
Step into a new day.
We can rise up from the dust and walk away
We can dance upon the heartache, yeah.
So light a match, leave the past,
Burn the ships,
And don’t you look back.”

(For King and Country)

I honestly couldn’t imagine walking into another year at the start of 2018. I was walking through the worst and longest depression I have ever experienced. Questions loomed over my head that stirred up doubts and anxiety. But Time and Time again the Lord has proved that He is Faithful and True. Time and Time again He led me to a thankful place even in the midst of disappointment, hardship, and frustration. He is worthy of all praise, all trust, and all glory.

In the words of my sweet friend, Ning @shreddedgrace “He’s patient, kind, and gentle – He lets me ask all sorts of questions, He doesn’t just make vague statements about His grace – He sent me help, and He acknowledges, as to Elijah, that “the journey is too great for thee.” God never diminishes my grief but equips me for this path that bears the unmistakable imprint of the Divine.”

Walking into 2019, I find myself stronger in every area of my life than I was at the beginning of 2018. With everything I lost, I found Christ is sufficient. He has met all of my needs and so gently led me over the mountains and through the valleys. I don’t know what to expect for this new year but I do know that I can trust the Lord and I am not alone.

Happy New Year, friends!

💛Ruth

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Nineteen.

I am so grateful. A year ago, I was walking through a valley and I wasn’t sure if I’d make it another week, let alone another year. But by God’s grace, here I am celebrating another year of life and rejoicing over what the Lord has been doing in me.
Through this past year, I have gained a deeper understanding of the Lord as
My Savior
My Redeemer
My Helper
My Healer
My Provider
My Comforter
My Maker
My Sustainer
My Anchor
My Deliverer
My Leader
My Restorer
My Defender
My Shelter
My Hope
My Peace
My Joy
My LORD
And my GOD

He is worthy to be praised for His faithfulness.
I am in awe of His goodness and His grace.

“I love the LORD, because He has heard
My voice and my supplications.
(2) Because he has inclined His ear to me,
Therefore I will call upon Him as long as I live,
(8) For You have delivered my soul from death,
My eyes from tears,
And my feet from falling.
(9) I will walk before the LORD in the land of the living.” Psalm 116:1-2, 8-9

Life is a gift and I am so grateful to be given nineteen years.

I had a breakthrough.

One of the things I struggle with is worth and value in the things I make. To me, each thing I make is like my baby. A piece of my heart and soul is poured into every quilt, every mug rug, every pillowcase, etc. I have been constantly asking myself, “what is this worth? Is this valuable? If I try to sell this, will anyone want it? Will they even like it? And if they do like it, will they be willing to spend their hard-earned money on this thing that I made?” (Y’all, I’m about to open my own quilt shop and I’m having some serious doubts.)

I listened to Taylor Lee give an excellent talk on her Instagram LIVE that shed some light on some of the shadows I’ve had in my brain. I named doubts and fears that apprehended me from sharing or even doing what I love. Like for instance, I have a fear in the back of my mind that the recipient will not appreciate or love what I made for him or her as much as I do. And if they don’t love it, does that mean my work isn’t worth anything? To be completely honest, my doubts about how much my work is worth and how valuable it is translate into my doubts about how much I am worth as a person. “How valuable am I? What am I worth? Am I appreciated and loved? And by whom?” (There’s the deep question.) As I think about myself and my faults, shortcomings, and sin issues, I get so down and wonder how it’s possible that anybody could ever love me. What do people see in me that makes them stick around and tolerate me, like me, and LOVE me? What about me is so interesting?

I had my “aha” moment that broke me. I was asking the Lord (and myself), “what am I worth? What do You see in me?” And the answer came as a whisper but it was as plain as day. I am worth JESUS to the God of the universe. Jesus who is perfect in every way and I am not. Jesus who never ever sinned, (not once!) and I sin every single day. Jesus who always pleased the Father and I do not.

And yet, when God looks at me, He does not see my righteousness, He sees the perfect person of His Son. (How can this be!?!?!)

I am completely, entirely, and fully loved by Him. I am worth everything He is, not because of any innate ability or quality of mine, but because He saved me from my sins by giving His life as a ransom for me. And that’s really all that matters. He rescued me. He redeemed me. (You’d think I’d know this, and I did in my head. But it’s been so long since it’s penetrated my heart and sunk in.) Y’all, this never felt real until now!

I am in awe of how God works. He doesn’t leave us in the dark.

So anything good that you see from me, whether it’s something I make or say or do, is not because of me. It’s all because of Jesus, my precious Savior. He has changed my life forever and without Him I am nothing.

The Quilted Rose Co.

I am SO excited to announce that The Quilted Rose Co. is {FINALLY} opening Saturday, March 3rd (3/3)!

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It has been my dream to open my own quilt shop and now I’m pursuing that dream.

Here are a couple sneak peeks of what will be listed. Let me know what catches your eye!

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I’ve started a blog in hopes of sharing the stories behind each quilt I’ve made in the past and the quilts that that are yet to be made in the future. Feel free to check it out here!

Morgan Harper Nichols Though.

I love this lady and I love the words she shares. She writes devotionals and poems and she creates beautiful pieces of art, oftentimes combining color and words into an amazing masterpiece. You can find her on Instagram (@thedevoco & @morganharpernichols)

Her words have encouraged me so much in the past several months. She is also a singer. Her soulful voice has accompanied her sister, Jamie Grace, in her latest album, ’91. (Go listen to Daughter of the King)

Hope this encourages you today! ❤

A Bottle of Glass Hearts!

I’m watching the snowfall today. What I thought was only going to be > 0.1″ actually turned into a winter wonderland. Needless to say, I’m happy to be home. I’m just trying to figure out what to do on this unexpected day off. 😉

My friend, RJ, is releasing yet another book! This time, a collection of five short stories. Check out her blog to read the descriptions of each one. (A Bottle of Glass Hearts!) Then come back and tell me which one is most intriguing to you! (Mine is Gem because Soleil is an ESFJ like me!) 😁

***If you absolutely cannot wait to read Lucent Sylph, you can download the kindle version for FREE here. (Read Lucent Sylph) It’s one of my favorites written by RJ.***